NaPoWriMo, my plans changed…

In the more than two years that I have had this blog, “This Is Who I AM” in existence, I do not think I have ever made a big deal about having subtitles for my blog post titles.

However, if I were to do add a subtitle for this blog post, it would be, “A Healing Journey Anew…”

As I have mentioned in previous blog posts, April is National Poetry Writing Month (also known as NaPoWriMo).  The intention is to write a poem every day for the thirty days of April, and post it on one’s blog.

Alas, that was not what I accomplished.

I would love to say it was because of laziness, Internet porn, an incredibly busy Psychic Practice, or a new romance.  But none of those reasons apply.

It was because my physical health took a bad turn.

Those of you that have been following or reading this blog for a while may recall that I had a stroke in August, 2012.  Well, there have been a few changes that have taken place in my life since then, both physically and emotionally.

In short, what I eventually learned was that my heart muscle had become quite weak, and it was not doing what a good, healthy heart is meant to do.  As a result, there were many days, that I was short of breath, sometimes feeling as though I was gasping for air.

Actually, it got to the point that I could not lay down to sleep.  If I wanted to sleep, I needed to sit in the big, easy chair in my living room.

Although I have been in hospitals before, I know that my anger for the medical industry resumed.  There is something so inherently wrong for me about the medical industry being a business.

Now, ladies and gentlemen, blog followers and readers, please keep in Mind that I have no problem with people receiving money for what they do.  In fact, as Mr. Prosperity, I fully agree with the practice.

Nonetheless, there seems to be so much greed associated with certain professions, and unfortunately, the medical industry seems to be one of them for me.

In other words, I rarely, if ever, see anything but the focus on money with regards to the medical industry.

For the first time in my adult life, I now have medical insurance, an actual Health Maintenance Organization (also known as a HMO).  Personally, I know this shall, in its own way, expand my Prosperity Consciousness, but I could not help but notice how angry I would become when a service was offered to me, one that had never been offered me before, especially in this very same hospital.

There were services, I had never even heard of, services that were in place when I was in this hospital in both August, 2012 and 2013, but now I have heard of them and know what they are.

Part of me still feels like I “sold out,” and would have been better making a pilgrimage to the “Crone in the Cottage.”

Nonetheless, I was in the hospital from Monday, April 21, until this past Thursday, April 24, 2014.  While in the hospital, I was given antibiotics, diuretics, nebulizer treatments, and was prescribed a low-sodium, fluid-restricted diet (which I AM maintaining).

My heart feels better, my stomach feels better, my legs do not feel as “squishy,” and I can breathe easily again.  I can walk more freely, too, as this was affecting me so much that I had to take frequent breaks between walking.

Before I had gone to the emergency room of this hospital, I had gone to a doctor’s office eleven blocks away from my apartment building.  Now, even when I was much heavier, walking eleven blocks was NOT an issue for me.  That I had to stop–TWICE–was an issue for me, as that was the first time that had ever happened to me.

I can honestly say that I feel better, physically and emotionally, too.  I no longer feel as though I gasp for air, I can walk more easily, I can breathe much more easily, and more frequently, and now I need to resume my Faith in the Goddesses and Their Angels that They Are helping me, help myself.

Also, my connection to my Intuition is becoming stronger, too.  For some reason, I could not feel my Intuition, nor my Reiki.  Usually, when that happens (rarely, on both counts), things are very bad.

Although I was in bad shape, I do not feel I was close to dying.  Then again, I have no doubt that the Divine wants me to live and live fully.  As a fellow Witch told me after my Divinely Orchestrated stroke, “You still have more work to do.”  Indeed.

Last week, I recall an Affirmation from one of Louise L. Hay’s books.  It goes, “Every hand that touches me is a healing hand.”

And that is Divine Truth.

Now, I AM taking it easy, not doing too much too soon, and getting plenty of rest and relaxation.  And, of course, being compliant with my medication regimen, making sure not to exceed 2400 milligrams of sodium per day (or 600 milligrams of sodium, per meal), and making sure not to consume more than 32 ounces of fluid (water, juice, coffee, tea, etc.) per day.

I must confess, this has curtailed my desire to eat out, which is something I enjoy very much.  I know that eventually, I shall feel more comfortable eating out again, but now, it seems like too much of a frustration and a hassle.

And, I AM remembering to maintain my Spiritual and Magickal Practices.

I recall, a few years ago, I had a temporary bout with Bell’s Palsy; it affected the right side of my face (and when I read the mental patterns that lead to Bell’s Palsy, in Louise L. Hay’s Heal Your Body, I did, indeed, say aloud, “Why am I not surprised?”).  I went to the doctors, followed their instructions, was compliant with my medications.

However, I also Prayed, engaged in Meditation, as well as group and Solitary Ritual and more.  In fact, I recall participating in Grove Argentum’s Yule Rite that year, and during the Ritual Feast, I felt my right jaw begin to spontaneously move.  Coincidence?  Yeah, right!

I also want to mention that I had lost count of how many people had told me about someone who had it: a former girlfriend, a former employer, himself or herself.  In fact, of the forty or so people who told me someone he or she knows, or himself or herself had it, only one told me that someone in his life still has it, at the time that he first told me.

I certainly took that as a clear and evident Sign that my Bell’s Palsy was temporary.  And, indeed, it was.

Before I close, I wish to acknowledge my newest blog followers.  There are a lot of them, so give me a moment…

My newest blog followers are: “Charlotte Cuevas,” “antranettedoe,” “immabelike,” “baelnorn71,” “lisairisart,” “spiritual-warrior,” “thedressshop,” and “Closet Conflicts.”  May all of you receive Divine Love, Divine Light, Divine Prosperity and Divine Peace from following “This Is Who I AM.”

And for those of you already following or reading this blog, may we continue to live lives Divinely Abundant with Power, Transformation, Healing and Protection.

In closing to you, NaPoWriMo, my apologies that life got in the way of being able to fully honor you.  I shall happily (and healthfully) make it up to you next year.healinghands


6 comments on “NaPoWriMo, my plans changed…

  1. I’m sorry to hear of your health problems…but glad to hear that you are getting well and taking care of yourself. As someone who has her own health issues…I often look at incidents like yours as a directive from Goddess to ‘Sit down and be Still!’ It is then I receive the blessings I have been too busy running around to notice….and I am grateful for all of them…and even the illness which took me down in the first place.
    I wish you gentle healing and strong recovery. May you see the blessings around you every day….everywhere….

    • Adelina, thank you for your very kind and Loving words.

      Indeed, that is the very same message I was receiving from Goddess, “Sit down and be still.” However, I can honestly say I did plenty of that in the hospital, to the point that two of my doctors and one of my nurses highly recommended that I get up and move around (which I did).

      And yesterday, Sunday, April 27, 2014, I engaged in a Sacred Solitude/”Unplugged/Off-the-Internet” day, and hardly moved at all.

      However, there are professional responsibilities that I have, and two doctor appointments this week (one in less than four hours) and the times that I shall “Sit down and be still” shall be decreased.

      Nonetheless, I remain compliant with my medications, remembering to monitor my sodium, and fluids intake, and being immensely thankful for so many.

      Not to mention the fact that I want to resume my blogging, which shall make me and others very happy.

      And I respectfully disagree with you about these health challenges as “problems.” Perhaps if they were chronic I would think of them thusly; but they are challenges, for me to overcome and for me to create Powerful, Transformative and Healing Change.

    • Thank you for the lovely comment and Blessing.

      Indeed, that is what is happening, and the level of hypochondriac behavior has decreased, too. Which is a HUGE Blessing for me (and for those around me, too!).

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